Back from Krabi with a burnt back. But it was worth the fun. We indulged in good food, massages, met some really nice and friendly people, good times with friends, swam, snorkelled, was wet for most of the time.
And for the first time I'm admitting to myself I've funny feelings for MH. It's too late to do anything or say anything about it now, cos the truth will end up hurting alot of people. But for the past few days I kept wishing to myself that I can turn back time to perhaps 10 years ago and acted on the puppy love feelings. Maybe things would turn out differently and we would have been different but happier people. This trip shouldn't have been just the 3 of us. it brings back too much memories.
I keep on recalling the past memories... what happen to us... to our budding puppy love that never really went anywhere. And why we lost touch and he got involved with the girls that messed up so many peoples' lives. Is it my own fault for naively sharing my feelings and thoughts with the girl who then take the opportunity to come in and work her magic on him? Should I fought for him, for us? It's definitely too late now but I really can't help myself with all this thoughts.
Do I still have the mickey mouse necklace and the little blue box he gave me when we're 15? I was still using the blue box until last year as a jewellery box but then it rusted so I replaced it. Now I wished I've kept it, dunno why but i just want to hold on to something from happier days with a lost love.
I really have no reason to be sad but I am..
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